Gracias

Support
Carrying me
Gentle and steady
I bow my head
Grateful

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Last week’s #ThursdayDoor was taken from a hotel room in Spain. I also took a picture of these doors, because I wanted to share them with you.

I went to Spain for the second year of my education, even though I have a broken foot and I’ve had hardly any income for months because of it. The work we do there is too good to miss out on.

I think I underestimated how tough it would be, and in a way I’m glad I did. I probably wouldn’t have gone if I’d know I would be crying on day 2, because I was physically unable to go from the hotel restaurant back to the conference room. I was too tired. Too scared of the wet foot path. So I cried, and I asked for help. I wanted to be in the room where we learn, not alone and exhausted in my hotel room.

And help I received. In many different ways. People stayed with me, and helped me get back to the conference room. Someone checked if I’s be able to rent a wheel chair, and then arranged it for me together with another lovely person. The group chipped in to help me finance the wheelchair. I got help getting my food at meal time, taking me and the chair up the (many) stairs in the hotel. I got swirled around and danced with in the bar, patted gently on my cast..

It’s hard to explain what this has meant to me. I normally try to do things on my own, be independent, self-catering to my needs… So this was Different. Very Different. But it made my week. I’ve felt supported, loved, cared for, seen, and a number of synonyms I can’t even come up with. Maybe I can best explain it by what happened afterwards.

Last night I had a nightmare. It was about NOT asking for support, and how everything went wrong because of that. In my dream I felt that I needed support, and also why I didn’t ask for it or accept it. Me old-style… I was so happy when I woke up and

realised it was a nightmare. In reality, all those things didn’t go wrong. And I now know how to ask for support, allow for it, be grateful for it, and even enjoy it sometimes.

Thank you!

5 thoughts on “Gracias

  1. sustainabilitea

    The best door here is the one in your heart that you opened to allow all these others in. It’s always easier to be the one doing the helping and you get a good feeling from that. It’s much harder to be the one being helped, especially as we’re often told we should make it on our own, etc. But accepting help given by those who want to help is a blessing and should be accepted graciously and thankfully. I’m happy there were people there to give that sort of help. 🙂

    janet

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  2. marianallen

    Congratulations on being surrounded by caring, generous people, and for trusting them enough to ask them for help. What a wonderful experience for all of you, and for those of us with whom you’ve shared it. ❤ 🙂

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