Ersatz poem

The dullest thing in our house
shines the brightest – by far
I can’t tell you I love it
it takes away too much
but I can tell you what it gives
– that’s what it does
unrelentingly

depression doesn’t spark joy
it does spark creativity
poems by the penny
paintings by the pound

Graham’s number of life lessons
like

how to
start
stop
stopstarting
startstopping

know
the difference
between
real longings
and fake ones

engage
body in
not listening
to brain

trust
counterintuitive actions
like
reaching out when retreating in
getting out of the house while desperately wanna stay in
shining light on the darkness even if convinced it might be dangerous

And
less important for sure
Check
What makes a poem a poem
to see if this is a poem
Because
the only feedback
the inner critic knows
is
That’s Crap
worthless shite doo-doo dirt
a dung’s dropping
a waste of excrement

Advice

When the inner critic uses
a thesaurus
please
disburden
of
the self imposed penance
of
writing an ersatz poem

Alternatively

study reverse mathematics
simply because
it exists

Disclosure: I haven’t clicked on What Makes a Poem a Poem yet. I will later, and I’m curious if I’ll want to change this piece 🙂 The prompt at napowrimo.net was to to write a poem about a dull thing that you own, and why (and how) you love it. I realise that the alternative (what would it mean to you to give away or destroy a significant object?) I considered too full of despair to even try.

Ersatz Poem

Poem and drawing by Angela van Son

10 thoughts on “Ersatz poem

      1. Angela van Son Post author

        I’m not even sure I like it, but I got tired of not exposing it I guess. I follow some people on facebook that have been a great inspiration to me by being very honest about their mental health and stuff going on in their lives. Not painting the pretty picture, but daring to share the human parts of daily life.

        I like privacy, but i also care about the fight against stigma.

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